Almost time

My alarm woke me up this morning at 5 am. My plan was to get ready and start the day. I don't usually like to stay in bed or oversleep, I get headaches. But I did manage to get an extra hour of sleep, so I got up at 6 am.

I headed over to my usual morning coffee place and stayed there for a while then headed over to school. I cleaned out and organized most of my classroom and accomplished most of my "to do" list:

I also checked my literarure books for any damage. I hope I don't have to pay for damage because I am going to need to get a summer job if that's true.

As I was packing, organizing and throwing away things, I found some printouts of power point presentations I used and some of them had tons of notes that I had made. It was as if I was writing a script on what to say to class once I started the lesson. I got a little emotional, I survived (well, four more days) an entire school year. It has been a roller coaster of emotions. From happiness, to sadness to heck, even depression wondering if the kids were understanding me or if they looked at me in confusion. Was I speaking the same language?

I remember at the beginning of the year, after the last bell would ring and my 8th period would run off into the sunset, I would sit down, and cry. I can't tell you how many tears I have cried this school year. "What am I doing here?" I would ask myself. But the next day would come and I would not quit, even if it felt sometimes like people actually wanted me to.

Although I still do need a lot to work on, I feel like I have accomplished so much. I taugh English. Can you believe that?! As a kid I knew I always wanted to study English in college. That was my favorite subject. In a family of math and engineers, I was the only one that had the passion for writing and literarure.

As of tomorrow we have four more days with the kids. I am both excited, but sad that I won't see them anymore. Like I said before, they are my first babies. All 110 of them, even if some of them hated my guts, wanted me dead or were on a mission to work on making me quit, I will miss them. I will miss all those students who would tell me I was their favorite teacher, or that I made laugh or that would come to me when they had a problem. 

Oh well, for now I relax. I am feeling a little sick today. I am feeling some pain/discomfort in my lower back. Where my kidneys are. I am drinking tons of water today! It has to do with my meds too, doctor told me to drink it up (water that is) because the meds were strong.

I always carry my viola everywhere I go. I think I need to come out of retirement and practice this summer, maybe I can stand outside a gas station and perform for people. ;)